Back To Square 1

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If there's one thing that I wish I could do right now, it would be to turn back time.

I can only flinch at the thought that things are now completely different between us. I see him several times a week, get to spend time with him yet he seems distant in a way. We laugh, have our usual conversations, walk alongside the other yet, despite his nearness, I'm missing him terribly and inside, I feel like I have lost a huge part of what I was.

I guess if you've been hurt before, you simply can't help but put your guard up--denial your primary defense mechanism. Fate might already be handing you that chance to be happy but you just fuck it up with your pride and the nonsensical need to save face. All this would seem rational at that moment but would be utter bull once you realize what you’ve just thrown away.

Where do I stand in his life? What am I for him? Questions that lead to more questions.

I could ask but it wouldn’t make sense anymore. He would probably laugh at my foolishness. I just missed my chance and I might not get another a shot at it. All I have to do now is wait and see. Wait for the answers...stand back and let the events unfold.

When it comes to that one thing that supposedly makes the world go round, a person considered to be wise may be completely clueless.

I am, after all, April Fool...

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Anonymous said…
I hate questions that lead to more questions...
12:31 AM
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