coffee stains

If there are worse things than unrequited affections, indifference is surely one of them. Regardless of the motivations behind a person's actions, you'd expect the slightest bit of regard for your feelings if you mattered at all. Your propensity for overthinking could've been useful. Clearly you didn't think about it well enough before exerting so much time and effort. You've spent countless hours wondering where you stood in that person's life. You've been asking the universe for a sign yet didn't expect it to hit you square in the face without warning. 

More often than not, we only have ourselves to blame for our aches and sorrows. When things don't go the way we want them to, we might say that we'll know better next time. We put walls around us but tend to break our own rules for someone. Rejection and disappointment hurt like heck but why do we often end up throwing caution to the wind, willing to go through all of it again in the hopes that things will turn out differently? It's not wrong to keep the faith. There could be times when even reason tells us that there's got to be more to what is being let on. There could be moments when you might just be reading too much into the situation. Perhaps it's only human to yearn for our efforts to be reciprocated but it's only wise to never assume that you're not delusional unless it's explicitly confirmed. It's our accountability to keep our emotions in check and know when to pull back. 

Reality could dawn on you like the the first rays of light peeking over the horizon. A gradual reveal taking its time to unravel. Oftentimes, it hits you like an icy beverage thrown unexpectedly in your face. Either way, they could both yield the same brutal outcome--you're jolted back to your senses once and for all. Harsh realizations could pain you for weeks, months, maybe even longer. On the bright side, that achy feeling in your chest and the knots that form in your stomach when you try to make sense of the circumstances will eventually fade away.