Mad about ...w/c one again?

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I got myself a diversion to escape my madness and the one I was trying to evade has just become my diversion for my diversion. Hah! How crazy but true! Just to elaborate and further confuse you, I liked Guy A, but then I said to myself that he would never like me the way I liked him and decided to find another..eherm...inspiration.

I don't think I will ever learn my lesson. I know that one of the worst ways to get over someone is to condition myself to like someone else...especially if you happen to just notice someone by accident. I got the chance to get to know Guy B better and he turned out to be really sweet, sensitive and we have a lot in common. I developed a humongous crush on him but then, things start to get weird...there's the crazy jealousy, my sudden poetic frenzy and the pathetic longing to spend as much time with him as I possibly could. I couldn't go any further. One more step and I'd be falling off the cliff. It would be so wrong to entertain my feelings. It would indeed be suicidal to embrace the thought. Not only was I willing to bet that it was another tragic case of love unrequited (hah! sure!) I would be living a lie.

Being away from work has its advantages. Shitty but true, absence does make the heart grow fonder. When I saw Guy A last night I was back to my old habit. Don't we always remember the originals?

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